Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Still Standing For The Moment...
So it is my last night in Bordeaux. This has to my favorite city I visited in France. Very old, very quaint. Still haven't gotten my travel legs but I think I am getting there...well...maybe not.
I'm sitting here right now in the stairwell of my hotel because the reception is closed at this hour and it is the only way I can get online. I have tears running down my face because really the.only thing I want to do is go home...but I can't...No matter what I cannot let this beat me...but right now it is completely and toally kicking my ass...and I don't know how to make it stop.
My gay husband says that I am living the dream...I know he is right. I am so thankful that I am able to travel like this...it is a dream come true. What he doesn't know is that there's another dream I'm living a million miles away...a dream I've waited my whole life for...someone to share my life with.
The thing is I know that I need to accomplish something out here...what exactly is yet to be determined...right now I feel like I am fluttering into failure and I'm scared.
For now I go to Spain...my love...my place....